Could be the stress of exams..
or my mind just bounching off the walls in my head again...
but recently i tend to feel continually suffocated.. tied down..

i'm definatly on a downward emotional spiral of somesort..
me and sophie are romantically finished..
boy it sure was nice while it lasted..
wheather friendship is in the cards leaves to be seen.
and here i am alone, which i haven't been in a long time..
the loneliness is a heavy contributor.. but hey..
can't hang on to the past.. we gotta move on..

More and more i'm beginning to believe that
whatever it is this life has planned for me..
cannot be found on this island.. By no means am
i a turncoat. i love this country to death and will defend it
with my life is necessary.. but the world is big,
and somewhere out there is my place in it all.

jaded.. i guess thats a pretty accurate
description of the way things are.. i am jaded
with life love money and all else jammed inbetween..
Some people have it all in life..
the car, the babe, money, happiness..
Things don't seem to be working for me here...

We are the depressents...

Hide behind the smoke and mirrors,
don't let them know we fear the night..
when the darkness falls we are cold alone,
pressed to breathe throats parched and dry
wondering about uncertian tomorrows.

Grasp for anything to ground you,
lest the nightmare engulfs you..
We are the ones, the only ones
and they will never know..