After reading all the posts..
i myself can't help but feel a little emo as well..
it makes me tired..
i don't know how you are really feeling..
but i can make a pretty good guess..
i hope you aren't upset..
and i hope you don't see the 3 years as a waste..

i also need some space now and again..
so i don't get too attached to how things were..

I haven't posted here in a long time..
you've been blogging alot recently huh..?
and it sounds like i have alot to explain for..
hmm.. where to start..? where to start..?
this general reply is to all your recent blogpost btw
not just the recent one.. and its not about finger pointing at all.. : )

I think we both can agree that we really really gave it our all for this to work..
3 years did come with its fair share of breakups and makeups..
and each time we did something new.. made sacrifices and compromises..
and tried to make things better.. and i'm really proud of that.. proud of you..

Just so you know.. i never conveniently left you alone..
after the break up.. i was worried that you might take it badly..
and i found it best that i keep some distance..
we did not need to get back into that viscious cycle again..
it was never the case that i didn't care..
it was just the best solution at the time.. i do care..
if not.. would i have read your private blog to check up on you..?

Aug 13s' post..
hmm.. i guess ur allowed to be upset too..
the thing is.. after you initiated the break up..
i had already decided that long term both of us wouldn't be happy in this..
and you know better than i did that we did have alot of unhappy times..
and somethings we would never see eye to eye on..
and it was tough for me too.. i grit my teeth and was unhappy alone..
but we had no choice..
so it was not that i just cast you aside.. cuz i met someone new..
or that i didn't care what was going on in your life..
but since we broke up.. i decided we had to move on..

i really don't know love or claim to understand it..
and i think that you are allowed your opinion of me..
but before you judge me..
remember that theres my side of the story too ya.. ; )
but i did alot for you too.. x'mas gifts.. birthday gifts..
care packages.. and not that i mind..
but i never got or asked for anything in return..?

Aug 14s' post..
We are creatures of habit huh..
Yup.. i don't think i'll make you happy long term la..
you'll probably get so pissed off and throw stuff at me or smth.. :)
on to your questoins..
let me re-literate.. i didn't 'jump ship'
getting over us wasn't easy.. but i'm slowly and surely i'm moved on..
i met and really got to know her just as she was leaving for australia to study..
and we just had alot in common.. music taste.. attitudes towards life..
over the phone and smses we just clicked..

NO i wasn't with you while it happened..
while we were going though our ordeal.
my heart and mind were focused on your physical and emotional well-being..
nothing else.. i myself was dealing with it..
didn't have much left in me anyways..

i definatly do not hate you.. i know it may be hard to see..
but i still see you as a good friend.. and i enjoy our outings..
physically i want to be there to guide and support you through it..
cuz friends look out for each other..

the promises i made.. do i still love you.. yes..
but context wise.. not in the same way..
i love and cherish you as a friend..
wanting to be there for you forever..
i still keep as well..
unfortunatly things didn't turn out the way we planned..
but like i said.. your friendship is one i treasure..
and i do hope through it all we can be there for each other..
my promises were not empty.. ; )

Whoa this is one long post..
love the little quirks you wrote about me.. spot on..
i'm sorry things had to turn out this way..
but deep down you know its for the best.. and i'm glad..
if you are sad i know that you will get over it slowly..
no break ups are joyful initially..
i know you are a fighter.. and you'll face it head on..
emerging stronger and wiser..

Love andrew