Dear Baby girl..
really loved the letter.. its was clear and precise..
really glad you got that all down.. Sorry about the time off..
feel terrible that you are so worried.. Rest assured love
my hand has and will always hold yours..
Through the thickest of thicks and well.. thinnest of thins..
(not exactly a good metaphor but its 5 in the morning..)
You know this already.. i want to ALWAYS.. make you feel like a princess..
be there when you need me.. shower you with love like no other..
you need to understand that i can't always Give you that feeling of falling in love..
honestly.. there are times when you are fustrated with the things i do or say..
and vice versa.. and its perfectly normal.. i don't believe in every moment of perfect bliss..
And listening to fel and her ideals of a perfect relaionship..
of what should be and shouldn't be.. is she in that perfect relationsip..?
(its not a personal attack at her mind you)
i believe ideals are something to strive for..
but to dissect our relaionship.. and feel sad that we aren't that now..
i won't accept.. we are young.. hell i feel i know nothing about women sometimes..
So you have to cut me some slack now and again.. *grin*
the most perfect couples fight.. and have ups and downs.. = )
We will too..
but i will always give my all to give you happy times..
when you get lonely.. and i'm not around.. its a good time to look at us..
but don't let your mind run.. and run.. fears can get out of hand that way..
and well.. its just not healthy love.. you always wanna be strong and independent..
i don't for a second doubt that you are and can be.. exercise that..
i hate to see you upset and not able to focus when we're apart..
If you want me to call and it would help you..
its as simple as telling me when during the day..
and i promise i'll call that time everyday..
even if its during my break i'll make the effort..
cuz its worth it for yor peace of mind.. = )
If you want to stand for a break up.. and i'm using this as a hypothetical..
i'll understand given our history.. its not been easy love.. for you and me..
alot of sacrifices and effort on both our parts..
and sometimes, like so many other things in life.. the end can seem so far..
fustration and anger sets in.. fear takes over..
its best illustrated in an army setting..
its like navigating in brunei..
everyone feels lost.. we huddle to discuss which way to go..
to the north a tree.. to the east.. another tree..
west.. another tree.. and south.. you guessed it.. another tree..
3 days with one meal.. not a change of clothes..
wet clothes and UNDERWEAR..
you just feel like sitting down and dropping everything..
5 more checkpoints in 2 days.. the end seems impossible..
everyone is edgy, hungry thirsty dirty aching..
and on top of that.. Lost..
We press on.. its all you CAN do sometimes..
and it pays off.. it Always does..
i needed the time off.. purely to look for a way to handle our relationship..
in a way that would leave you always whole.. and me happy as well..
i think i give alot for this.. and i'll never complain or have any resentment..
i'm here to provide..
we are working to YOUR perfect relaionship.. and i'm all for that..
as for me what i see in a good relationship is simple..
good conversation..
love and understanding..
great company..
support..
and being practical, a good physical relationship..
(not that it's all about that..)
About you wanting to provide more for me...
i'm totally psyched about that.. all for it.. picnics..
laughter and dozing off in front of the tele..
if no sex is whet you wanna stand for..
it stands against what i see a normal relationship can't be without..
BUT.. i'm up for that.. realise that we are making it work..
and i'm being open to your ideals..
Being insecure is something i'll help you with..
and everytime i do.. i just need you to get stronger..
emotionally.. sometimes i can be so drained..
i'd never tell you otherwise.. cuz i want to be your pillar..
but you need to be stronger.. if you want this..
Fight for this like you've never wanted anything more..
i always stand my ground.. and hope that one day..
you'll wake up and say i want to be with him..
i want to SHARE a perfect kickass relationship with him..
(not yours or mine.. shared ideals.. a vision)
cuz unless both of us are willing to give and take a little..
one of us is always gonna have the short end of the stick..
Haha your sad blog always resonates that tough times are ahead..
But i'll never back down.. and neither should you..
lets work it out..
i'm feeling motivated.. =)
really loved the letter.. its was clear and precise..
really glad you got that all down.. Sorry about the time off..
feel terrible that you are so worried.. Rest assured love
my hand has and will always hold yours..
Through the thickest of thicks and well.. thinnest of thins..
(not exactly a good metaphor but its 5 in the morning..)
You know this already.. i want to ALWAYS.. make you feel like a princess..
be there when you need me.. shower you with love like no other..
you need to understand that i can't always Give you that feeling of falling in love..
honestly.. there are times when you are fustrated with the things i do or say..
and vice versa.. and its perfectly normal.. i don't believe in every moment of perfect bliss..
And listening to fel and her ideals of a perfect relaionship..
of what should be and shouldn't be.. is she in that perfect relationsip..?
(its not a personal attack at her mind you)
i believe ideals are something to strive for..
but to dissect our relaionship.. and feel sad that we aren't that now..
i won't accept.. we are young.. hell i feel i know nothing about women sometimes..
So you have to cut me some slack now and again.. *grin*
the most perfect couples fight.. and have ups and downs.. = )
We will too..
but i will always give my all to give you happy times..
when you get lonely.. and i'm not around.. its a good time to look at us..
but don't let your mind run.. and run.. fears can get out of hand that way..
and well.. its just not healthy love.. you always wanna be strong and independent..
i don't for a second doubt that you are and can be.. exercise that..
i hate to see you upset and not able to focus when we're apart..
If you want me to call and it would help you..
its as simple as telling me when during the day..
and i promise i'll call that time everyday..
even if its during my break i'll make the effort..
cuz its worth it for yor peace of mind.. = )
If you want to stand for a break up.. and i'm using this as a hypothetical..
i'll understand given our history.. its not been easy love.. for you and me..
alot of sacrifices and effort on both our parts..
and sometimes, like so many other things in life.. the end can seem so far..
fustration and anger sets in.. fear takes over..
its best illustrated in an army setting..
its like navigating in brunei..
everyone feels lost.. we huddle to discuss which way to go..
to the north a tree.. to the east.. another tree..
west.. another tree.. and south.. you guessed it.. another tree..
3 days with one meal.. not a change of clothes..
wet clothes and UNDERWEAR..
you just feel like sitting down and dropping everything..
5 more checkpoints in 2 days.. the end seems impossible..
everyone is edgy, hungry thirsty dirty aching..
and on top of that.. Lost..
We press on.. its all you CAN do sometimes..
and it pays off.. it Always does..
i needed the time off.. purely to look for a way to handle our relationship..
in a way that would leave you always whole.. and me happy as well..
i think i give alot for this.. and i'll never complain or have any resentment..
i'm here to provide..
we are working to YOUR perfect relaionship.. and i'm all for that..
as for me what i see in a good relationship is simple..
good conversation..
love and understanding..
great company..
support..
and being practical, a good physical relationship..
(not that it's all about that..)
About you wanting to provide more for me...
i'm totally psyched about that.. all for it.. picnics..
laughter and dozing off in front of the tele..
if no sex is whet you wanna stand for..
it stands against what i see a normal relationship can't be without..
BUT.. i'm up for that.. realise that we are making it work..
and i'm being open to your ideals..
Being insecure is something i'll help you with..
and everytime i do.. i just need you to get stronger..
emotionally.. sometimes i can be so drained..
i'd never tell you otherwise.. cuz i want to be your pillar..
but you need to be stronger.. if you want this..
Fight for this like you've never wanted anything more..
i always stand my ground.. and hope that one day..
you'll wake up and say i want to be with him..
i want to SHARE a perfect kickass relationship with him..
(not yours or mine.. shared ideals.. a vision)
cuz unless both of us are willing to give and take a little..
one of us is always gonna have the short end of the stick..
Haha your sad blog always resonates that tough times are ahead..
But i'll never back down.. and neither should you..
lets work it out..
i'm feeling motivated.. =)
