sometimes i'm really confused as to if she really wants this relationship..
i've never really seen her fight for it.. she loves me.. i get that..
i've fought time after time for this to work out..
maybe i should stop.. and let the cards lay where they are..

HOW much do you want this..?
would she go the extra mile to make this work..?
when she thought so hard and long for ariels present..
by george.. i wasen't jealous at the time.. but..
i can't remember the last time she made a fuss over me..

but i wonder if she's proud of me.. even if she says she is..
she doesn't show it.. its hard not to be regonised..

she's lost herself in her act.. i know what thats like..
i used to go to that place all the time..
beat myself up over and over.. asking the world who i am..
expecting there to be a TRUTH.. and feeling lost when nothing appears..
lost.. useless.. worthless.. i know those words..
they were mine.. and her cycle perpetuates..

thats what she's caught in.. "I'm worthless.."
now i know for a fact thats the biggest load of bullshit..
she's potential as far as the eye can see..
but she just won't embrace it..

i can't wait for her to come back..
her vicious cycle puts her through so much..
and me too.. i miss her..
but i can't be her shield or her cushion if i want her to grow..