UUggghhh~~~..! so ANNOYED~!
i specially took the time to come down today to be with her..
even skipped a dinner with tris.. Spent cash to come down..
get a ticket.. and cab home..

all this for her not to be alone.. i even went there hoping to have fun..
and the whole time.. she was busy not even being present to me..
i swear.. 80% of the time we danced.. the was No eye contact..
or presence to BE with me.. someone was always doing something..
or wearing something.. that was MORE interesting..
if u wanted to look and gossip about others..
i didn't NEED to make a trip down..
THATS why kenneth was pushing you to actually dance with me.. !

and why are you so afraid of being intimate in public..
is being seen close to me scare you of what OTHERs might think of you..?
its really killing me.. that we can't be free and hold eachother like
the world was made for only the two of us..
Fuck them..! i could really care less of what others think..
cuz we HAVE to look prim and proper..

i left all of a sudden.. because i had HAD it..
i'm not asking for full attention.. but if ur dancing with me a lil might be nice..
you could get drinks with me.. even if it was theoritically not practical..
i came down for you..

Practicality..
other peoples relationships seem so much more interesting to gossip about than ours..
Its CUZ u make it SO safe~! SHeesH~.. Non Exciting~ there u have it..!


aiyay yae.. i Need a stiff drink..
i'm not asking you to be something ur not..
but ur mental boundaries are making it so hard..
things that i see but won't and can't say anything about..

i'd hate to think that our lives would end up like the bradies where everything is
just freaking boring and gotta be wholesome..
We could be happy in our white pickett fence.. PERFECT children..
where everything HAS to be just dandy..
GOD forbid.. Where's the normality..