Nothing has happened relationship wise to result in this post.
Just random rantings i guess. Wow.. women huh.. what are
ya gonna do. Its like they constantly set you up to be disappointed
or hurt. Women are crazy and I can slowly feel my faith in
relationships slipping. honestly, it must be easier to find a diamond
lying on the roadside of Calcutta than find a soulmate.

Jaded, I've had my hopes up and dashed too many times to
even fathom a silver lining.

Could be the stress of exams..
or my mind just bounching off the walls in my head again...
but recently i tend to feel continually suffocated.. tied down..

i'm definatly on a downward emotional spiral of somesort..
me and sophie are romantically finished..
boy it sure was nice while it lasted..
wheather friendship is in the cards leaves to be seen.
and here i am alone, which i haven't been in a long time..
the loneliness is a heavy contributor.. but hey..
can't hang on to the past.. we gotta move on..

More and more i'm beginning to believe that
whatever it is this life has planned for me..
cannot be found on this island.. By no means am
i a turncoat. i love this country to death and will defend it
with my life is necessary.. but the world is big,
and somewhere out there is my place in it all.

jaded.. i guess thats a pretty accurate
description of the way things are.. i am jaded
with life love money and all else jammed inbetween..
Some people have it all in life..
the car, the babe, money, happiness..
Things don't seem to be working for me here...

We are the depressents...

Hide behind the smoke and mirrors,
don't let them know we fear the night..
when the darkness falls we are cold alone,
pressed to breathe throats parched and dry
wondering about uncertian tomorrows.

Grasp for anything to ground you,
lest the nightmare engulfs you..
We are the ones, the only ones
and they will never know..

mMMm..
I think I shall write something to my dear trina...
HelloOo babe!

I'm slowly seeing the changes in you..
The new job and us being apart
has really allowed you to be more independent..
and your positive attitude and
inner strength are really building up..
and i couldn't be more proud..!

I wanna say Though there were ups-and-downs..
i'm glad we were together..
Through our relationship i've learnt alot..
and i really enjoyed it..
and i hope you did too..
Now i know that, that special guy for you..
will be 4.. or 5 times better than me...! haha
and he'll be all my good points.. and a little more..

Jiayou babe..
Andrew

Haha..
i think i finally should pen down what i want in a girlfriend..
she has to be smart..
spontanious.. sexy..
know how to have a good time..
share some intrests..
be understanding..
and she has to love me..
take care of me..
oh and good fashion sense is a plus..

haha.. not too demanding i hope..?
Now where do i go looking for someone like that..

why can't i be that lucky..
i really don't understand why..
could be the rum talking..
but its times like these i really wonder..

to have someone who really adores
and understands you..
who you feel so at ease with..
could be just that i've been burnt..

but how i'd love to have someone like that..
*sigh* well we can't always have what we want..
and i don't wanna be emo..
Hearing unintended today i missed you..
but ur in another conintent..

someone who gets me.. is it too much to ask..?
well maybe.. regardlss.. sleep will do me good..

After reading all the posts..
i myself can't help but feel a little emo as well..
it makes me tired..
i don't know how you are really feeling..
but i can make a pretty good guess..
i hope you aren't upset..
and i hope you don't see the 3 years as a waste..

i also need some space now and again..
so i don't get too attached to how things were..