||DrewX|| |+ Sleeping With GhostS +| says:
ermm whats up...? wanna tell me sumthin..?
°¨??•.®.I.?. & .H.u.?. •??¨° ‡†‡ ?? I? cäp'? ?? ????g,cä??? ??? ??? ?Ha? ? ??Lo?g. ?? ‡†‡ http://greeneri3x.blogspot.com/ says:
ah
°¨??•.®.I.?. & .H.u.?. •??¨° ‡†‡ ?? I? cäp'? ?? ????g,cä??? ??? ??? ?Ha? ? ??Lo?g. ?? ‡†‡ http://greeneri3x.blogspot.com/ says:
take care
||DrewX|| |+ Sleeping With GhostS +| says:
thats it...?
||DrewX|| |+ Sleeping With GhostS +| says:
haha.. okay..
°¨??•.®.I.?. & .H.u.?. •??¨° ‡†‡ ?? I? cäp'? ?? ????g,cä??? ??? ??? ?Ha? ? ??Lo?g. ?? ‡†‡ http://greeneri3x.blogspot.com/ says:
hmm.. haha wat do u wan me to sae?
°¨??•.®.I.?. & .H.u.?. •??¨° ‡†‡ ?? I? cäp'? ?? ????g,cä??? ??? ??? ?Ha? ? ??Lo?g. ?? ‡†‡ http://greeneri3x.blogspot.com/ says:
l0lx.
||DrewX|| |+ Sleeping With GhostS +| says:
nah.. i just got a weird vibe... guess i'm wrong..
°¨??•.®.I.?. & .H.u.?. •??¨° ‡†‡ ?? I? cäp'? ?? ????g,cä??? ??? ??? ?Ha? ? ??Lo?g. ?? ‡†‡ http://greeneri3x.blogspot.com/ says:
haha.. wat u expect me to sae " drew , though we knw each for less than a mth, i sense theres feelings for u , i knw its too sudden but i'm nt in need of a r.s now.. bt i do feel for u. . bt ur entereing NS. .i knw its sudden , bt i got to tell u tt. .i hope we can further it, we will go with e flow ok ? i will wait for u "

I'll bet you expected this answer. You already knew
you were a DARK ANGELIC, didn't you? You
are similar to a demon but slightly different
in that you don't revel in evil...you revel in
pleasure. Your wings resemble an angel's but if
that's so then you are a Fallen Angel - your
love of sin caused you to be cast from the
Heavens. They are black as raven wings and are
nearly as dark as your desires. You are
faithless and love it - you believe there is no
Judgement Day to fear and so you can do what
you want! You have a refined concept of what is
sexy and a slightly chaotic sense of 'fun.' In
fact, you love chaos and view much of what you
do as a game. You are typically attracted to
those that will challenge your mind, power, and
wit...and are 'dangerous' people like you. It's
not unlikely that you are bisexual or at least
open to the concept, because you seek
excitement and passion everywhere and in
everyone. Chances are you have a special talent
for magick - you're a powerful being and you
know what you want. Like a Serpent of Eden you
like to try your powers of seduction and
manipulation, though your intent is rarely to
cause harm. You have a deep, dark sense of art
and/or poetry, because your mind is a deep,
dark place. While typically smirking, amused,
and sarcastic, you are capable of severe
revenge and a passion and intensity unrivaled
by any other. In your eyes life is for
enjoyment and pleasure - nothing else. If
you're not having fun in your own twisted way,
you're not happy. You are easily bored with the
vast majority of people. You are most likely
drawn towards the Gothic subculture and
probably adore Goth music, art, and style. Many
people look down on your seemingly careless
lifestyle and may even consider you 'slutty'.
Not true. You just know you're sexy and you're
damn proud of it. Dark Angels have an outlook
most like Satanists - loving sin and looking to
none but themselves for power. Congratulations!
You're my kindred spirit. As far as I'm
concerned - you know what life is REALLY about.
Have fun...Muahaha.

Trying to find source, will be posted ASAP.


*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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your with him and that hurts me..
And you ask me to stop hurting..
so the only way to stop hurting..
is to stop loving you..
and i can't do that..
if loving you hurts...
than i'll hurt for eternity..
because i'd love you that much.

what do you want me to say..?
that i don't love you..?
that my heart doesn't bleed when i see you cryin..?
that i'm not at my happiest when ur with me..?
That i don't dream day and night of holding you in my arms..?
that loving you isn't what i wanna do for as long as i can..?

*grin*.. i'll tell you that... just for your peace of mind..
but i will never mean that.. cuz its all a lie..
the biggest i've had to tell...

we went to the park..
||DrewX|| suicide notes and butterfly kisses says:
and she told me that she was gonna tell me she liked me at the begining of this month.. but she was scared.. and i told her that i was going to do the same thing..
||DrewX|| suicide notes and butterfly kisses says:
but we have an intermediate friend.. whom she's very close to.. and when she told him that she was going to tell me.. he told her that he liked her..
||DrewX|| suicide notes and butterfly kisses says:
and they actualli both liked each other in earli j1.. and after that.. she told me that she still has feelings for him.. and that she was sorri.. that if one of us had said anything before this.. things would have worked out differently..
||DrewX|| suicide notes and butterfly kisses says:
and i told her.. to go with him.. cuz i realli just want her to be happy..

Suicide notes and butterfly Kisses

Encase me.. in my glass casket..
So i can't hear the rantings of outside..
The silence echos loudly.. and its so scarey..
so this reflects my inner state of mind..
If you close your eyes for me this time..
i promise you won't see me anymore..
But shut your mind and if you look hard..
Faint outlines form me in silhouette..
Wrap me up in velvet.. red if you please..
My peace and solice coming from inside..
When shadows fall upon me.. the time of sleep..
i'll stay awake thoughts running tru my mind..
just wish that i could stop it.. heading for a crash..
Maybe this crash will save me from this life..
Had a life but i can't go back.. its too black..
Never wanna live that lie again..

i'm not gonna be modest.. now isn't the time..
so i'll just say it.. i have had many friends say to me..
"what? ur not attached?
i would think that girls would flock to you?"
and i'd laugh and make the excuse of not finding one who'd put up with me yet..
and i'd get the"there are many fish in the sea comment..."
and i'd laugh saying that..
either they don't catch my interest.. or they aren't interested..
and.. over time the conclusion is that.. maybe the girls aren't my problem..
but i'm the defective one..
not to say that i'm losing my toy boy good looks..
Impecible ability to crack a smile on the stiffest of faces..
Or caring and sweet nature..
but just.. that.. THAT special something is lacking..
i just don't have it.. and i.. hmmm...
i give up~ i THINK.. i'll resolve to being single all my life..
i might have to take this back someday...
but i'm seriously skeptical.. i can't honestly say that..
love.. is not my cup of tea.. its not my "thang"..
that my love life is about as active as a cold dead fish..
black and white simply put..
love isn't for me.. there i said it..
No girl of my aptitude in her right mind will fall for me..
and girls who DO fall for me.. always have a mental disillusion

Love me..?

I imagine myself asking in a dark void..
Is there someone there for me..?
and i can only chuckle to myself..
redundent.. the question was retorical by the way..

i know.. or have come to the conclusion.. that..
no.. not for me.. there will not be one.. not one..
I should be.. i should be.. But..
not to be... not to be..

How could i be bitter... I am hard to love..
i cannot be the one to complain..
Sedated.. soul searching.. dark and alone..
Nobody should have to suffer with me through it all..

A creature of dispair and Need.. i shalt not deny..
but.. there comes a time.. that i just hit the brakes..
Flying 200 miles an hour.. i spin and skid.. out of control..
Falling i spiral endlessly.. My world shaken out of context..

In that flash of Distruption.. a single shining truth forms..
No more.. i shall not search anymore..
acceptance will give me flight.. my ravens wings rejuvinated..
Soar alone into the night unknown..

Joke..~

Its a fuckin Joke man..~ i think i must be mad..
relationships are in and out like they some kinda fad..
I should go to my old damn ways just playin with them hoes..
Nah... no way i'm tru wit that.. i'm just TICKED that no one knows..

Hold up boy~.. maybe u got a point..
fuck around like All these people here in this joint..
Ain't no way no how they gonna see..
dat they just livin some Phantasy~..

So Lets throw it down.. right herrre tonight..
Its like i'm all rerred up and ready to fight.. BuuUut..
chill a sec and think it tru man...
Doin dis shit ain't at all like you .. man..

Yo..~ stop drop and roll..~
U know we all dressed up and ready to go... And~..
Clubs be thumping all loud and shit..
When i walk through dem doors the girls have a fit.. Uh..~
Hitting the bar and orderin' drinks...
Hell we don't give a fuck what nobody thinks..

THE RASMUS LYRICS

"Time To Burn"

Fear of the dark tears me apart
won't leave me alone and time keeps running out
Just one more life, I'm so sick and tired
of singing the blues, I should turn my life around

Tell me why do I feel this way
all my life I`ve been standing on the borderline
too many bridges burned
too many lies I've heard
I had life but I can't go back
I can't do that, it will never be the same again
and I know I don't
have any time burn

they follow me home, disturbing my sleep
but I'll find a place, place where they cannot find me
maybe I'm lost, and maybe I'm scared
but too many times I've closed the doors behind me

Tell me why..

leave it all behind
cross the borderline
face the truth, don't have any time to...
don't have any time to burn

Tell me why..

~Help Me~

i'm just gonna say it..
i wonder why everyone turns 2 me for help..!?
its so ironic.. the person with..
the lowest marks for a's...
least experiece in an actual relationship..
without a paternal parent figure..(miss you dad)
the person who himself is burdened with his own problems..
and cannot make heads or tail of it BY himself..
the person whose just giving honest ..
the most common of sense advice..

Why why why..?
Sometimes it scares me.. that.. me knowing so little..
and giving advice to others.. i feel so unqualified..
am i a fluke..? *sigh* what if i do it wrong...?
and i don't wanna breed dependence..
but friends do come to me and i want to help..(most of the time i DO)
but dependence brings on its own set of problems..
it.. well drains me.. helping others with their problems..
sucks the life out of me.. ever so slowly..
and i have less state of mind to deal with MY own issues..
god knows they aren't being resloved..

damn my knight in shining armour syndrome to wanna help everyone..
but don't they see.. that... in doing so.. i'm sacrificing myself..
i appreciate those who do.. but i am only human too..
my body tires.. my mind dwindles.. my emotions strain..
time spent with you is my time that could be spent doing something i like..

i've spent so much time being a talking post..
That is one of the worse things.. Sweet jesus...
and this glass is soon overflowing..
Or my head is soon to burst.. eventually..
its like.. they rant on and on..
honestly.. i Am tired.. of the
"i just want someone to listen..."
Seriously.. i've had enough..

Black Wings

i was having pretty rough night ..
quite stressed.. tense all that.. nothing was working out..
had 2 beers.. and walked alone in the rain for awhile..

The cold was embracing..
The rain, raw and unbecoming..
The morning sky painted stunning lilac and blue..
And me standing alone in the middle of it..
The cool rain drops pounding as i look into the sky..
My hands reach up.. trying to grasp.. something anything..
Soaked to the bone i felt my spirit lift..
Chilling dew runs down my neck..
i feel my back tear..
and my wings branch out..
The cry echos the streets..
The silence shatters in the instance..
slowly the rain washes the blood off my body...
Kneeling on the gravel..
Black wings wrap me tight..
I didn't want to leave.. the rain was me.
So cold.. dense.. tired and gloomy..
So dark and lost.. the gale of winds blow right through me..
Perfect the night that i became..

number one

okay.. y have i started this..because.. because..
somethings.. i just don't want pple to know..
do you know how its like to shout in an empty room..?
and you onli hear the echo.. assured that.. no one else heard that
this will have more intimate.. feelings and thoughts..
Like my title.. here's number one..
the first... okay.. results are out.. and
lets be honest.. i realli fucked up..
i'm ... scared.. i'll just say it.. i'm lost.. and lastly.. alone..
i'm scared... y?
i dun even know if the uni will take me in..
change of lifestyle from jc to a uni?!
thats scarey.. i dunno what its like..
i'm scared... that... i'm a fluke..
just a wannabe.. a one time thing..
maybe everyone was right... that..
i'm not smart.. that.. i won't make it in life..
i'm lost.. i... dunno where to go..
what course do i do in uni..?
where do we go from here..?
whats at the end..?
i'm.. not ready...!
i'm alone.. ARgH~! fuck man..
i want her to know.. damn.. its like..
*siggh*.. i'm gonna end up beating myself up..
its like she doesn't know~..
i wanna be so close to her..
just holding her hand tight.. assuring her that we'll be fine..
feeling her troubles melt when she leans on my shoulder..
seeing an entire galaxy when i look into her eyes..
friday at embargo... my god.. sitting with her..
Looking into her eyes... *sigh*
having her lean in to me when we talked..
and feeling her head on my shoulder..
i was.. happy.. for the first time.. in SO long...
i want that... and.. i'll.. never have it..
sweet dreams andrew.. you got work 2 do..
thanks for talking.. come back whenever you need to talk..
*grin*..